The Four Week Sprint

This is it. We're in the final stretch of my junior year and the end is so near I think I can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel, from behind my mountain of standardized test review books. Tomorrow morning I'm taking the SAT for the second and possibly last time, depending on how my scores are, because my first round yielded scores that were honestly above what I expected. On friday I begin with the AP english language exam and immediately following that I go straight to an overnight crew regatta in northern Virginia. The next wednesday I take my second and last AP exam of the year in US history and am using that weekend to tie up loose ends on my final project for my American lit class, which is due the next monday, and the following week marks the start of our final exams, followed by an ACT that weekend. *deep breath*

This year has absolutely flown by. I don't know how I'm feeling but I think it's caught somewhere between happy tears and panic attack. My life just feels like it's moving 90 miles per hour and accelerating, hurdling me towards senior year faster than I want it to. We've already started work on my senior yearbook and in nine days the seniors will be done with their school year so we'll move into all of their spaces. I'm looking forward to the chaos that is senior year but I also am so terrified to leave my school. It's been my home for 11 years and knowing that after the next one I won't be returning leaves me with a haunting feeling of uncertainty that quite frankly I am NOT okay with. This little girl isn't quite ready to grow up just yet.

Looking back on this year, so much has changed and I've grown so much as a person. I never imagined that I would end my junior year this way, but I've become so strong that I'm also starting to realize that college is something that I might be able to tackle.

Life moves so fast, and I don't want to sprint to the end of the year but it's what I have to do in order to not drown in everything that's going on. I just have to charge through it.

On your mark... get set... go.